A few months ago, from the corner of my eye, I observed a boy around twelve or thirteen in deep worship. It was as if it was just him and Jesus in the room, (no one else). It was truly amazing to witness someone at this age in that level of worship. All throughout service, I kept glancing at him in admiration. distracted much, perhaps, but good distraction!
Maybe it’s me, but in this society, my heart is over joyed to see our youth unashamed, worshipping HIM. From across the room I could feel how genuine this boy was. It made me think about my relationship with God at that age. If anyone knows my mother, they can appreciate my first recall ” I don’t understand how you can sit in church and not sing and/or clap your hands during worship, I just can’t understand it “. You can say I was in the ” questioning God phase”. However, at the time, it is clear that I had no relationship with him, I didn’t ” know him”, I just “knew of him”.
Like most of us, there are some things from our childhood that I questioned, why me? Last year, I did some serious soul-searching, attempting to find some answers to where my rebellious attitude and behavior emerged and as my mom would say, flourished. There was no interest in knowing Jesus, this was for the saints, and I was not aspiring to be one, (so I thought).
Call me crazy, but I could not commit to worshipping when I was so confused about life. how? How do you want me to commit, when things are messy? How, Lord? I thought all of it was insane, so I checked out and allowed myself to be deceived by CL ( Cunning Lucifer ). Things really took a turn for the worse when my mom and step-dad divorced. Being the oldest of two younger siblings, I was expected to “help my mom out”. This added responsibility and the feelings of abandonment that many children of divorced parents experience seemed to be overwhelming. Thank you Jesus for salvation, forgiveness, grace and deliverance.
During service, my mind wandered about, what if? What if ” I knew Jesus early on, and not just knew of him? Would my actions have been different? Really can’t say, but If I had to make a guess, I would think so. Research has substantiated that children who are taught spiritual principles are less likely to involve themselves in negative destructive behaviors. Less likely does not mean we will not, we all know PK ( Preacher Kids ) that have messed up, ” we all fall short”.
Proverbs 22: 6 Train up a child in the way he should go: and when he is old, he will not depart from it.
My husband and I feel it is necessary for children to understand the difference of knowing about God and having a personal relationship with God. This was one of the inspirations behind our journals. The goal is to help parents equip children with the latter. We enjoy teaching them through biblical teachings and watching them put their teachings into practice.
Our prayer is that these journals bless you and your family.